Cornerstone

I know I have mentioned it to some, and oh it is plastered all over facebook for the world to see thanks to my sister Emilie, but I did get accepted to Cornerstone. I have been told it is really easy to get in, that is not the point. I never though I would really go anywhere. I have been feeling so stuck lately in what I should be doing that getting in puts me one step closer to going somewhere. I am not 100% sure what God wants me to be doing with my life but I am sure He will lead me, I have faith he will not lead me astray.
I am currently listening to Luis Armstrong's When your smiling. A good song for the day. It is a little cold outside, and there is frost covering the ground and the vehicles in the parking lots. The sun is trying to shine, but is a little challenged by the clouds in the sky. The sky is clouds to my right looking out the library and clear to my left, it is interesting.
I love the trumpet in the song, the notes are so clear, and they seem to connect to me in a way no other instrument ever has. Perhaps that is because I played the Cornet for several years. I fell in love with the sound of the Trumpet in High School, the sound I think is very unique. I don't think any other instrument has the power that the trumpet does.The notes can sound happy, they can even sound as if they are crying, I love this about them, the notes that is. It could also be that this music reminds me of the 20's and I have forever been in love with that time period. With the swing dancing and the flappers, a beautiful time filled with sorrow.

The next step

I did it. I finally got my application sent in to Cornerstone University. Now I wait, I have requested all of my transcripts to be sent, as well as a Christian Leader recommendation. Now I wait, I don't exactly know how long I will be waiting, but it doesn't really matter. I have been thinking of applying elsewhere, but I don't really want to. I will be closer to family there, and not too far away from Petoskey/Charlevoix area.
My Philosophy teacher said today that because "most of us", his wording not mine, believe something then it is true. I tried to catch him on it, but the words did not come out right. have you ever had that problem? You really want to say something that should sound intelligent but you end up sounding more like an idiot then you did to begin with. I hate having this problem, I wish speaking came easier to me. Especially when I am nervous. Oh well, that's life.
We are supposed to get snow later, I really hope we do. A snow day tomorrow would be spectacular!!! Sleeping in sounds nice. Well, enjoy the short update, maybe someday I will write a long blog entrance. :)
God Bless!

College Applications and rants

I finally did it. I submitted my application to study psychology at Cornerstone University in Grand Rapids. Now I wait, hopefully only a few weeks. I guess I have not considered what I will do if I don't get accepted, but at this point I have time to apply to other schools. If I don't get accepted I suppose that will be God telling me that I am supposed to do something else with my life. I am excited to go to Bible study tonight, although it might be because I get home cooked food, and I am very hungry. Today has gone exceptionally well, it started off with coffee, a Bible study and an hour work out, how could any day go wrong starting off like that. Now I am on my break from work. I have gotten a lot accomplished today, and the only thing that has not gone how I wanted is the back of my hair. If that is the only problem I had everyday I don't think I would ever complain. Either that or I would complain even more because as a human I like to complain, the fact that I am a girl probably helps that.
So I watched part of Iron Man 2 last night. It seems like an interesting movie, but I can't move past how much Scarlet Johansson bothers me. I don't even know why she bothers me. Probably for the same reason that Jamie Lee Curtis bothers me, and I have not figured that one out yet either, probably something to do with their faces. Although that is strange in its self.
Yesterday I won a two hour game of Scrabble against my friend Josh, I am very proud of myself for that one. We used every letter in the bag, and I got like 38 points for a three letter word, I think I am even prouder of that.
Anyways, I should probably get back to work now that I am just rambling on. Although that is all I do anyways.
Nothing new on philosophy as I skipped class on Thursday. :)

Have a Blessed Weekend Everyone (if in fact anyone reads this) :p

SpringHill 2011 and other topics

Over the course of the last month I had the privilege to attend SpringHill twice, once with the Junior High and again with the Senior High. Weekends at SpringHill are always so special. Granted I am going as a Youth leader whereas before I went as a student, the event is still very powerful. Spending time the Jr. and Sr. Higher's is a blessing to me. I love being involved in their lives. I have to admit I don't always get other teens; I was not your average high school student or middle school student for that matter. That being said I truly hope that I impact their lives in a significant way, or at least plant a seed. I mean I am not expecting to change lives, only God can do that. I am expecting that I can allow God to work through me. I hope I can allow him to do that. Being so busy has kind of left me exhausted, I am looking forward to Spring Break when I'll have a few days off. I think I am forgetting what that looks like; I am usually so busy that when it comes to not having anything to do I freak out. Literally, the last time it happened I almost walked in circles because I had nothing to do. No homework, no extracurricular activities to prepare for... strange feeling. I am learning to relax though, profound activity, although it is kind of sad that I had to learn, shouldn't that come naturally?
On my Philosophy class; I find that sometimes I have to work to keep my mouth shut. Not easy, I am used to saying almost the first thing that comes to mind. I guess all those books on the tongue needing to be tamed have something to them. I have actually prayed that God would help me with that, as it is kind of difficult to do on my own. I am working on waiting for the Lord's prompting. If it, in fact, comes. I was near the point of holding my tongue a while ago the comments got so bad, at least the ones I desired to say, not the ones I actually said. I have this terrible desire to make the teacher look like a fool. But that won't get anybody anywhere; best to just keep quite.
I have yet to finish my Cornerstone application. I know I am procrastinating, but it is a huge decision. It could change my life. I am struggling with that kind of commitment. No surprise there, I have a major problem with commitment, not a good thing. I have not figure out what I want to say in my essays. It would not seem like it would be a problem for me, some don't think I ever actually shut up (it isn't that I haven't tried, I just find that people think there is something wrong when I am quite(either way I lose there)). Anyways, I wish I knew 100% what I want to do. It is kind of scary going into something and not really knowing if that is it or not. I know I want to work with kids, I really love youth ministry. That is where I am at, I want to help kids, impact them for Christ, but I don't know how I am supposed to do that. I keep telling people I am waiting for the moment of enlightenment, the banner from above, the hand writing on the wall (you get my drift?) But it has not come yet. The closer it comes to having to make a decision the scarier it gets. I don't want to make a mistake and be stuck with a degree that does not serve me at all. I guess this is where I trust God. Although sometimes I wish I could test him, ask him to start a pile of sticks on fire, or make it rain, or something more obvious. I guess I could, but it's not anything but a selfish want for my lack of faith I suppose. I'm not the only one here, so that's comforting, I just wish this whole college thing was easier.